I, Jaen
This has
nothing to do with feminism or equality or
itisallaboutethicsinvideogamejournalsm-gate or whatever.
But it has
both videogames and identity kind of. Well it’s mostly about me. Here goes.
All that
follows is based on my experience with the Mass Effect and Dragon Age series
from BioWare and the great Elder Scrolls games from Bethesda.
And of
course Diablo, D&D, KOTOR, Shadowrun and a bunch of MMOs and other RPGs.
As you
might have guessed I like RPGs both the digital and non-digital variety. The
ones with action and high adventure. I like to kill orks, slay dragons. Blast
aliens, stormtroopers, robots and faceless corporate goons.
I’m the one
saving the world or maybe just my own ass.
But I have
found something that might be a bit peculiar.
When I play
any rpg from Bioware I play the same character, Jaen. It should be Jean but I
spelled it wrong by mistake and stuck with it.
I’ve been
Jaen Shepard through the Mass Effect trilogy. Jaen Hawke and simply Jaen in
Dragon age 2 and origins respectively.
The
character creation in Bioware rpgs is pretty much the same. It has of course been
improved over the years but not much has changed. I always pick the same
options.
Female. Red
hair. Green eyes. In space some kind of scar. In fantasy settings some mystic
tattoo. The hair is the shortest ponytail option you can choose. (That must be
preferable when fighting darkspawn or Reapers, I guess)
This might
seem weird, silly or unimportant to tell you.
So why am I
writing this? Well, I don’t know. But I found two interesting things.
1: I don’t
know why I always do this.
And 2: I
don’t always do it.
So why and
when. Well in all Bioware action RPGs. I create the same character.
Those games
are 3rd person and single player. So maybe that’s is part of the
reason.
But a bit
about my second point before I move forward. When do I play what character?
Depends on gameplay and narrative.
Just Perspective
In pen
& paper RPGs I always play different characters and classes. When I GM I
steal from everywhere. Even myself. My regular RPG group will not get to read
this but if they did they might start to recognize some NPC.
In all the
MMOs I have tried I never once made that same character. I’ve never been really
into MMOs but I’ve tried a lot them. Played WoW, DCU Online and SW: Old
Republic. The last one is definitely the one I’ve played the most. I is even
from Bioware and it is even fantasy in space.
But no I
made a different character. Not Jaen.
There is no
reason to play the same character in all RPGs of course. But it is kind of
interesting to see when and why you play what character.
In an MMO
there is a lot of other players playing. So the avatar is my representation in
the game to the other players. It is more a game piece than a character in a
story. The avatar is my body in the game, so I choose something closer to my
real body. Can seem silly maybe, I am not a Jedi in real life either I know.
I think it
is more about how I’m perceived than how I see myself. I don’t want scam anyone
or whatever. I’m a guy in the analog world so I’m a guy in the matrix. That’s
how it works, right?
In all the
Elder Scrolls game I am men too. Not even snakemen or elves. No, plain old
humans. Boring me.
Those games
are 1st person so it might just be that I play myself. I don’t know.
I play a Norse in Skyrim because that is what makes most sense and is in a way expected.
It’s on the cover of the disc.
Back to the
first point, Why?.
Perspective.
The above example mentions Skyrim being played in a first person perspective.
So you don’t really see the character you’re playing. Not even in
conversations. Only when you equip different armor and weapons.
In the 3rd
perspective on the other hand you see the character all the time. I play RPG to
be something other than my ordinary self. I want to immerse myself in lore and
of course kill monsters. If I’m going look at something for 40 hours it is
definitely not going to be me and I’d rather have it be woman than a man.
I play a
protagonist in a story in 3rd person in 1st I play “me”
Just narrative
The race you
play give you some kind of bonus, usually. The class of course has a huge
impact on the game you play.
But the
option to play male or female doesn’t have any impact on game mechanics.
So Jaen,
here is my justifications for why I choose the options I do.
In Skyrims
narrative you are The hero.
Everything revolves around you. Your choices. And you can do anything in the
giant sandboxes of Skyrim and Oblivion.
It is a
gamespace, game and narrative centered around one word/person: YOU.
In Mass
Effect and Dragon Age the narrative is centers on Shepard, The Warden or Hawke.
It is a different way focusing the narrative and playing the game.
You control
someone else. The protagonist in Biowares epic.
So I create
the character that fits and creates the most compelling story for me.
Here we
talk about stereotypes. Might be more suited to say archetypes. Stereotypes
have a bad rep. The Hero, The One, The Savior is stereotypes as well. That’s the ones you
play in these games.
The Hero is
defined by opposition. By whatever (s)he has to overcome. Destroy the Ring. Don’t
give in to temptation and overcome your physicality. If we look at Frodo in
LOtR.
In Dragon
Age Origins I was a female city elves warrior. I’m The Underdog. The Unlikely
Hero. The lowest of the lowest.
Of all the
peoples in Feralden the city elves are the most oppressed. The women are servants
or whores. And a warrior seemed as the most unlikely class for such a person to
be. (but honestly I just prefer playing a warrior).
In stories
like this the Hero is the unlikely one, weak or whatever. Frodo, Luke and so
on.
I pick the
Archetype that fits the story for me. (In Shadowrun Returns I’m a human female
street samurai called Molly because I love the book Neuromancer1)
And I think
there is a difference in how Skyrim and Dragon Age frames gameplay and story.
Just Me
Maybe it’s
just me. Maybe I think too much. Put too much into the choices. I can spend a
long time in character creation just pondering a name. Maybe it is just
personal preference. I prefer the FemShep actor to the male counterpart. I
prefer the story where a female city elf saves all of Feralden by sacrificing
herself to kill a Demon. I do it’s true.
But it is
more than that. I chose in stereo types but not in any bad way. My Barbarian
and Monk in Diablo are big muscled men while my Mage and Demon Hunter are
women. That makes most sense to my brain. When I play pen&paper RPGs I
wanna see a cool story unfold. The character I play reflect that. I identify
with stereotypes or archetypes from movies and books. I try to re-create those
stories, I think.
When I
chose it has little to with identity or gender. It is more to do with narrative
and gameplay.
In Biowares
RPGs or others framed in a similar way, I control, to an extent, a protagonist in
a story unfolding before me. In Skyrim I want to explore and kill dragons or
maybe just run around eating things. But maybe that’s just me.
Notes:
1: The book that started the genre we know call
cyberpunk. And greatly inspired the original Shadowrun pen and paper RPG. One of
the protagonist is called Molly Millions.
Also the book where the words cyberspace and
the matrix first appeared.
Bibliography:
Ace, Gibson,
William, Neuromancer. 1984.
Ludography:
BioWare. Mass
Effect. 2007
BioWare. Mass
Effect 2. 2010
BioWare. Mass
Effect 3. 2012
BioWare. Dragon
Age: Origins. 2009
BioWare. Dragon
Age II. 2011
Blizzard
North. Diablo II. 2000
Blizzard
Entertainment. Diablo III. 2012.
BioWare. Star
Wars: Knights of the Old republic. 2003
Blizzard
Entertainment. World of Warcraft. 2004.
Harebrained
Schemes. Shadowrun Returns. 2013.
Bethesda
Game Studios. Elder Scrolls: Oblivion. 2006
Bethesda
Game Studios. Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim. 2011
Gary Gygax
and Dave Arneson. Dungeons & Dragons. 1974
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